I don't have anybody to talk about these stuff, so that's the solution I came up with.
I just wanna throw my thoughts somewhere, I'm used to not having any response to what I say.
It's not really personal anyway.
If you want, you can click here to go back to the main page.
As I type this, I'm dying. No, not in the way you might be thinking right now. Let me explain.
Every second, some cells in our body die, and another ones come to replace them. That's how aging works.
Because the cells won't be the same. They got older, and that builds up to our entire body, making it older
as well.
It might seem like a slow process to some, while others might find it quite fast. I find it not too slow, because
imagine comparing that with other animals that have shorter life expectancies. Or ones with higher expectancies.
Well, all of them combined would still not match with how "fast" our entire planet changes. It took 4.3 billion
years to get to where we are.
Humans, have evolved so god damn fast the world couldn't keep up with them. A big portion of people keep
exploiting the planet (and even beyond) while a small portion of them help preserve what we have left.
Crazy, right?
What's even crazier is to think that humans going back to their original state is a utopia by now.
I was thinking about that while in P.E. class. I didn't participate and just stared at the streets while standing
by the view and, of course, thought about that. We humans have evolved so much that we're now even doing it
backwards. We're heavily reliant on technology and on how easily you find stuff on cities, and now some parts of
our body might even disappear because of that — the appendix. Because we don't eat stuff like tree barks anymore,
our bodies don't have to digest any hard plant cell. Technology already did it for us, in a way.
Then, my biology teacher also mentioned our little toe could disappear as well. Because we wear shoes now. We
don't need a toe to help us stand.
And now, another interesting fact is how testosterone levels have decreased over time. Because everyone is pretty
sedentary nowadays, myself included. Plus, the stuff we eat also affects our T levels. Highly processed foods do
that, which is one of the reasons why I HATE THEM!
So, have humans actually evolved?
Well, our brains have evolved quite a lot, that's for sure. But, it seems that this came with a tradeoff···
I was thinking of something I learned at school a while ago.
There was this Acient Greece guy named Plato, who apparently said that humans are "superior" beings because
they are rational, unlike other animals.
And then, this led to the rapid development of civilizations. It all started with the Greeks, then the Romans,
then the Byzantines... all the way to nowadays.
Plato then didn't even think of both humans and the world becoming what they are today. We're sort of selfish
beings. We evolved so fast that the planet couldn't follow, and now we have to deal with global warming and the
extinction of many species of animals.
Now, I wonder what would have happened if Plato didn't say that. Or if we didn't even think of a society back
then.
Imagine if 300k years later, we still lived like cavemen or indigenous people. That would be crazy.
I honestly find that kind of life better, but well, I don't feel like going back to those times now.
I just find it better because humans are part of nature. But we are destroying all of it! I'm pretty sure we
wouldn't be caring about all the current world issues if we were still primitive beings. We would be just like
any other kind of animal. Searching for food, killing other animals, finding shelter, and reproducing. Well, it
maybe all started way back when we dominated the fire. And now we've dominated the world. This is going to have
a huge backlash.
Well, maybe that backlash is already happening, but at a very slow rate. It's so slow that most people don't even
care about. Scientists are making so much effort to warn us about all the bad stuff happening thanks to our
current society, but it never is enough. Well, at least we have some people that do care about the planet and are
making some effort to make it more liveable. Too bad it's still not enough. Maybe the consequences are inevitable
at this point.
Oh yeah, and yesterday was my birthday. Time goes fast, happy birthday to me.
And speaking of time, I just realized I'm writing on this website every week. That's interesting.
I just made a silly song using my voice! Not anything amazing, but it's fun to come up with stuff like that
sometimes :)
I made this tune using a software called FastTracker II clone. It's a port of a song-making software with the
same name, the original one was made for DOS computers, which are really old machines and incompatible with
nowadays' PCs, but there's this guy nicknamed 8bitbubsy who ported all of the code to run on modern day
computers. He's a nice guy, check his website here! You can also download the
latest version of the FastTracker II clone on it.
Although it sounds like it, this wasn't actually a sponsored thing. I just like that stuff and wanted to
share it.
Well, now back to what this was supposed to be...
Memories. As someone who doesn't have a life, I find it wild how people get so emotional when they remember a
moment of their lives. Somewhere they went to, a moment they had with their friends, family or pets, and more.
Everything we do is pointed to an emotion in our brains, actually. We're complex beings, and emotions play a big
role in how we behave. It's the reason why being perfect is impossible. Something considered "perfect" doesn't
have any emotions. It's just an object, meant to have an ideal form. It's dull. It's boring. It's... emotionless.
Just look at how a computer opens an image file like anything else, but you have something attached to that file.
It's a memory. You carry a specific feeling to that memory. And the computer is just helping you get that
feeling. Crazy, right?
Well, even crazier is how people get so attached to their past events. I have no idea how that works, but it's
kinda interesting to see it in action a bit.
The day I started making this website, and now I'm actually writing something more meaningful here.
It's weird how it actually feels like 2 separate days, as I started making it at midgnight, went to sleep,
and now I'm writing another part of it. Time is practically a simple thing, but feelingly, it's really complex.
It's impossible to change how long a second lasts, but it's totally possible to change how fast one second feels.
You grow up estabilishing a routine, and then time feels really fast, when it's actually going in its same
exact pace. I think one of the reasons why some adults wish going back to their childhood is because of that.
As a kid, you experience a lot of stuff, and it mostly feels that time hasn't passed during that time.
But then you become an adult, and it feels like last month was the end of your childhood.
Our sense of time really is weird. The circadian rhythm is really the only part of our bodies that can
actually follow the time (if taken care of properly).
You see, the amount of experiences you have in a day is inversely proportional to how slow time feels at the
moment. But then, they get directly proportional when your brain plays the record of the moment.
I'm currently on my winter vacations, and I'm always trying to find something meaningful to do. Time felt
quite slow at the first week, but now BOOM! It's going fast again.
It kinda makes me a bit nervous because I start to feel that I'm wasting my time. Well, vacations were
meant to be relaxing moments, but I end up stressing myself because I dunno of any way to actually just
relax. Oh well.
But hey, at least that way I get used to big chunks of information being thrown at me! :)
Well, that could be a useful skill to nowadays' world. Remember how memes used to last MUCH longer?
After the pandemic, the internet became such a hectic world. Politics everywhere. AI. All of that stuff. How can
one be happy on such a place? How low can people really get?
I feel bad for all the sane people remaining that have to experience all of that stuff. I've never experienced
the early Web but I really wanted to.
The page design was so simple, yet people had more creativity for the content itself. It all became history now.
History that... might be forgotten. Technology is evolving at the cost of people's emotions. It's also evolving at
the cost of killing the nature. We're sucking Earth's life to give it to technology. What have we became??
Oh well #2.